Daydreams

Sometimes it feels like all I do

Is let myself envision the worst case scenario

I plan around failing

I think there will only ever be compromise

I try to let myself dream and then say

No, that’s unrealistic

That wouldn’t happen for you

You haven’t done enough for that

But what if just once

I daydreamed about succeeding

What if I become a famous author?

What if she does like me too?

What if I get to see the world?

What if my friends all stick around?

What if my parents are proud of me?

What if my success helps those I care for?

What if I make an impact that’s bigger than me?

What if even I cannot deny that I’ve done something good

Something right?

What then would happen to my daydreams?

Wouldn’t life be nice

If I could only daydream of a life

Where something good happens

At least once in a while

To let myself believe that I deserve the best

That I deserve something nice

That I can make something beautiful

Maybe those apprehensions I feel

Aren’t all that there is

Perhaps somewhere in me

There is someone that can succeed

There is someone that has already been successful

Someone worth being

And someone worth having been

Someone who did the best with what he had

And someone who should be proud of who he is

At least some of the time

And maybe, that person deserves

To daydream of a better life

And not to daydream of disaster.